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Dear 3 year-ago me: A Reflection on Graduation Day

Dear 3 year-ago me,

Congratulations on getting married and getting accepted into Redeemer.  You look like you couldn’t be more excited — as if this is something you’ve waited on for years.  The Lord has given you an extraordinary gift in David and his encouragement.  Cherish it.

People will make jokes to you about seminary (“more like cemetery” they will say).  You don’t want to listen to them because you think you’re different.  But their intentions are good and their warnings worth listening to.

You will be tempted to think of your time in seminary as a “means to an end.”  You don’t now — you don’t “have” to have this degree to serve as a minister of the Gospel.  Especially as a woman.  As a result, you see this season as a true gift, the pursuit of knowledge of your Savior.  Keep this intention ever before you.  Pray hard against the temptation to see this time as a means to an end. 

You see, especially towards the end of your time at Redeemer, the temptation will grow stronger.  With past voices in your head of “you will be successful at anything you do,” you will start to be afraid.  Afraid of what they will think when you don’t have a high-powered job right after you graduate.  Afraid of the pay cuts you’re sure to face after being in the business world.  Afraid of the word “internship.”  Afraid that you wasted 3 years of your life slaving away with nothing to show for it.  Afraid that you missed out on what everyone else seemed to be doing with their lives.  Afraid that 30 is too old to start a new career.  Afraid of not finding your place as a woman in ministry.  In a word, you will be afraid to fail.

You see, this fear has tripped you up all of your life.  It has led to seeing successes as disappointments.  It has bred discontentment.  It has darkened otherwise shining moments.  And you will stare it in the face for the hundredth time.  

 But take heart.  Remember that your Jesus has a plan.  Remember that his way almost always looks mysterious.  Remember that his life was one of humble servanthood.  Remember that he is worth trusting with everything you’ve got.  Remember that he has provided for you in countless unexpected ways up to this point.  Remember his miraculous salvation in your life, a salvation that speaks more life into you day after day.  Remember that the journey of seminary, not unlike the journey of your whole life, is to know him.

This is the best advice I have for you: Make your aim to know him.  In every class that you take, are you meeting him?  Are you in awe of his goodness?  Is the overflow of that worship making your face radiant?  Are you keeping your relationships a priority – because they are the most precious in his sight?  

27 year-old me, you are in for a wild ride.  Keep your eyes set on Jesus and you can’t go wrong.

And don’t be afraid to fail.  In the failing, in the ashes – you will know him.  And you will find life.

 

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